A friend in need

if i need to tell someone i defently will

yeah...u got a gp Erica...and yea Travis...can I ask here cause I don't see it...you said u'll tell if there's nothing else you can do...what is it right now that you can/are do/doing??? just curious...dont take it the wrong way.

Yeahh. Travis you REALLY need to tell someone about this. i mean since your the only one who knows about this and she really hurts herself i dont think that would make you feel too good knowing that she was doing this. There was a girl at my school who was doing the same thing and we told the school and they got her to stop. They said that it was a good thing we told because if she hurt herself bad enough and we knew about it, but didnt tell we would be sorta responsible. This is one of those times where its okayy to tell even if you promised you wouldnt.this is pretty serious. seriously tell somone!!!

Ok. You might hate me for saying this, but its time to stop the sugar-coating. She could die. How would you feel if that were to happen?

i know what could happen... but this is more of a chance of that happening if i tell them... because i have been talking to her so much about this its not even funny... all our conversations have been about this... and if i tell someone there is also time inbetween me telling them and her getting help... there is a high chance she would just end it all inbetween there... and i dont want to be the cause of that... i care about her alot and dont want this happening to her... once there is nothing more i can do i will... and the way im helping her may not show on the outside... but inside i know its reaching her... and helping her through this...

and i know it is... because she use to do it like every other night or even more... she hasnt done it for 5 days now... and that is still continueing...

i still think you should tell someone!!!!!

only when there is nothing i can do... and i will know fully when that time comes...

guys . .. this is a very sticky situation that travis is in...prayer and faith are needed...there is a saying ..dont kill the messenger...you have enough going on in your lives right now... lets continue heavy prayer on this..pray for an opening where she comes to travis..which she already has.. and that she sees that she desires what he has..its a battle that ultimately will be won with her salvation!! we have seen over the last 2 months some amazing things...salvations..baptism in the holy ghost..and our prayers on tues nights have had amazing results! we wont give up on her travis til we win too! pchaz

im going to tell them today... because i know what im doing isnt enough... sure its been 9 days now but this is really serious and im telling them today...

I was hoping you did but you know the situation better than me so I was just protecting you../ By letting you know ...its a cry out for help.. i agree ... but I felt all along that the final decision would be yours...and you would make the right one.... I will be praying for you....PCHAZZZZ

well i know where her mom works so im guna pop in soon...

The sooner the better. Thats really good Travis! Will be praying for you!

Keep us updated on how everything goes.

k i will once i figure stuff out and get everything straight so confused right now its not even funny

yeah I understand...praying everything straightens out soon!

shes still doin good been 26 days so far

ok... double post time... forgot about the hole site rofl...
but ide like to say something that happend an hour after that post...
me and her got in an absoulte huge fight...
and because of it...
she went straight back to square one ...

still praying...keep us updated!

to my best knowledge which is 99.9% sure. she is doing fine and has not cut since our last fight. (which was the same fight 2 posts ago) sorry forgot about site.. again. shes doing fine just a bit mad at me for stuff tho and fight with her BF

ugh i was talking to her 2day and shes a complete wreck right now... this will explain it.

Friday, May 30, 2008
tjpice (4:29:58 PM): hola
****** (4:30:02 PM):hey
tjpice (4:30:13 PM):what sup
****** (4:30:21 PM):nothign reallyy hbu
****** (4:30:25 PM):and i have a ?
tjpice (4:30:34 PM):sure
tjpice (4:30:37 PM):and nothing
****** (4:30:41 PM):do you think its a bad idea to get high?
tjpice (4:30:46 PM):sevearly
****** (4:30:54 PM):well do u think if i did it once i would be addicted
tjpice (4:31:15 PM):it depends. if u like the feeling your going to want to do it more... best not take the risk
****** (4:31:24 PM):hm..
tjpice (4:31:34 PM):and you yourself know how hard it is to break an addiction..
****** (4:31:59 PM):yeah...i mean i really dont want to because i know ill love the feeling and ill be addicted but i want to sooo bad
tjpice (4:32:08 PM):why do you want to..
****** (4:32:16 PM):to feel better
tjpice (4:32:28 PM):about what¿
****** (4:32:31 PM):everything
tjpice (4:32:47 PM):examples?
****** (4:33:29 PM):im just so frustrated all the time and i hate myself and idk why and i just hate thinking and i just want to fry my brain on weed so i can stop worrying about making decisions
tjpice (4:33:41 PM):****** dont
****** (4:33:46 PM):i know i shouldnt
****** (4:33:52 PM):i know ill get addicted
****** (4:33:56 PM):maybe i should just get drunk
tjpice (4:34:01 PM):no dont get drunk either
tjpice (4:34:09 PM):thats just as bad
****** (4:34:11 PM):well then what am i suppose to do
tjpice (4:34:37 PM):idk. but getting yourself high and drunk wont solve anything. youl just end up hurting yourself
****** (4:35:07 PM):gr this is so frustrating like making this decision wants me to get high even more
tjpice (4:35:28 PM):then there is something really wrong...
****** (4:35:40 PM):theres always something wrong
tjpice (4:35:56 PM):like right now. what is bothering you
****** (4:36:46 PM):i just always make the wrong decisions and if they arent the wrong decisions and they are right for me its hurting somebody else and then i feel bad so i try to make decisions that will make other people happy but then im not happy so i dont know what to do
tjpice (4:37:37 PM):ok what was your most recent mistake
****** (4:38:18 PM):this whole thing with (her bf [they just broke up]) i mean i dont want to be with him but i feel like he is mad at me now and i feel bad but he probably hates me anyways and i dont want him to hate me i just want to be his friend
tjpice (4:38:38 PM):have u tried talking to him...
****** (4:38:59 PM):like what do u mean
****** (4:39:03 PM):about this or just in general
tjpice (4:39:47 PM):about if hes mad at you. you feel his is mad at you. hes prolly not mad at you. why dont u ever find stuff out. maybe your worrying about nothing
tjpice (4:40:05 PM):if he is atleast youl know it cant be any worse off... it can only help
****** (4:40:16 PM):i guess i will
tjpice (4:40:43 PM):ya. and tell him u still do want to be friends. im sure he does to
****** (4:40:49 PM):mk
tjpice (4:41:34 PM):and really. you will lose alot of respect from the people that do care about you if you go and smoke weed and get drunk... really what would (her best friend) think if she knew u were guna go smoke weed...
tjpice (4:41:44 PM):better yet what if your parents knew u were guna..
****** (4:41:53 PM):they would all slit my throat
tjpice (4:42:00 PM):exactly!
tjpice (4:42:48 PM):i would compleatly lose all respect for you if you went and started smoking and getting drunk...
****** (4:43:04 PM):like you have any respect for me now..
tjpice (4:43:07 PM):yes alot
****** (4:43:16 PM):how so all i do is screw up
tjpice (4:43:29 PM):******...
****** (4:43:48 PM):what
tjpice (4:44:25 PM):i have a ton of respect for you. and you dont always mess up
****** (4:44:39 PM):travis just look at me im a mess
****** (4:45:27 PM):hold on i have to piss really bad i just chugged two montsters
tjpice (4:45:32 PM):haha ok
****** (4:46:43 PM):wow that felt good
tjpice (4:46:47 PM):haha
tjpice (4:46:52 PM):and there u can talk to him now
****** (4:46:59 PM):um ok
****** (4:47:16 PM):dont tell him anything
tjpice (4:47:19 PM):i wont
****** (4:47:21 PM):ill do it myself haha
tjpice (4:47:23 PM):lol
****** (4:47:34 PM):hm if he answers me lol
tjpice (4:48:03 PM):ya he hasnt answered me either lol. also really i would not look at you the same whatsoever if you started that shit up
****** (4:48:26 PM):im not going to..well im going to really try not to
tjpice (4:48:54 PM):and dont think if u do it and dont tell anyone it will be fine. because you will know what u did....
****** (4:49:22 PM):...
tjpice (4:49:39 PM):ya...
****** (4:50:43 PM):i cant do it
tjpice (4:51:03 PM):good thats really good
****** (4:52:51 PM):ill be ok its almost summer
****** (4:52:58 PM):and then i wont have to be around all these people
tjpice (4:53:04 PM):...
****** (4:53:23 PM):well im being seriouse
tjpice (4:53:36 PM):so your going to be doing less then u are now?
****** (4:53:51 PM):huh?
tjpice (4:53:55 PM):nvm
tjpice (4:55:11 PM):well i have to go. if u wana talk more or anythin just call. cya
****** (4:55:16 PM):ok bye
tjpice (4:57:01 PM):also if u dont have my # its 724-518-0539
tjpice (4:57:02 PM):bye

i truely believe shes not going to. but she still needs alot of prayer

Travis.. I will pray for her...you know I can talk to her personally .... have her call me on my cell...God has gifted me with the ability to talk to anyone....Michele too..(.especially teens)...and I can help if she calls...PChazz..412-225-1896.....

ill try to have her call. but most likely shes not going to. RANDOM SANTA

nope... shes not guna... expected as much she doesnt trust like anyone at all -.-'
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